Monday, 2/11/08; 9:45 AM
There is really no other point to living this life apart from serving as a vessel of the One Ceative Life Force: the Divine Intelligence that caused all there is to come into being. That is all I want. More than just to live–to become the fullness of my potential as God in the flesh. How far can I go? What can I do with this life to contribute to Love, Joy, Health and the Well-Being and Knowledge of humanity that we are Gods and Goddesses in Paradise; that the Garden of Eden is here and now–always was, is and ever shall be–here and now.
It is like a stepping aside–the stepping aside of the mind, the brain–the thinking, planning, know-it-all-self: the one who can straighten it all out as soon as she comes up with the right plan, the right goal, enough money, a different place to live, less weight, more love…
The one who took full charge of my life when she heard the words: invasive…mastectomy…the one who knew that she would find an holistic alternative…that led by her, God would heal! Abracadabra…1…2…3…and it’s all gone! A miracle.
The miracle is that I sit here, two months short of two years later, alive and well–no metastasis–with two beautiful breasts; one constructed from the fat that used to hang from my belly (a tummy-tuck reconstruction it’s called) and the other breast: the same beautiful, healthy, faithful one I’ve had all of the years of my glorious womanhood. Iam at peace with my body…my Self…my life. Having begun chemotherapy just last week–because there were seven positive lympth nodes–I am even at peace with the chemo. I am simply joyful that I AM THAT I AM; that what I AM is greater than anything in the world that is of man; greater than cancer–greater than chemotherapy.
And it is that I AM, that ISIS: innate Goddess Wisdom who is now in charge; guiding and leading this Being, this Entity on whose very DNA is stamped the name of God: YHVH. The ego-personality has stepped aside, relinquishing her leadership role to let Wisdom take over and my, how the blessings and joys and causes for celebration are unfolding, one rapidly after the other, as I just let myself be. All is transformed into JOY in the blink of any eye!
